Well.. I was feeling down this morning. I was all ready to write a moapy and moaning blog post about how I was feeling a bit miserable about my blog and some aspects of the blogging community.
Then, whilst I was waiting for Felix to fall asleep at nap time, I noticed I had a tweet from Carolin Mader telling me that I had made her Brit Mums Style Round Up! Honestly, the news couldn't have come at a better time.
Carolin, thank you. You really have made a difference to my day. It means to the world to have my blog recognised. You see, I've been writing this blog for quite a few years now. I am very proud of it and it has come a long way. I am thrilled to have regular readers and to have people join in with my weekly linky. However, I have to admit to some negative feeling. This is what I was going to write about today, and whilst Carolin has cheered me up, as it's my blog and I can write what I want, I'm going to put some of these thoughts out there. I hope it doesn't sound too much like sour grapes!
Blogging. It's a funny numbers game, isn't it! I always face the award nominations season with trepidation. On the one hand, it is lovely to receive even one nomination, but I know deep down that as it stands, my blog really has little chance of making it very far in these things. It may have been that once the MADs and BIBs were a fair place but to me it feel's they aren't really now. You see, the bigger your blog is, the more chance you have of people nominating you. Therefore, most (not all) of the blogs you see in the shortlists and finals have big followings. I know there are exceptions and those are truly wonderful things. I've seen blogs start small and grow into something wonderful with a very much deserved large following (Capture By Lucy springs to mind) but I also see some of the same blogs in the shortlists each year. And whilst I am not saying they are bad, I do wonder how some of them get there. There are so many other more innovative blogs out there with more varied and regular content. I'm afraid it gets my goat when I see a blog that is updated once a week at maximum with just a small post making it to the finals when I slog my guts out creating new and interesting content for this one. How do I think they get there? Well, if they already have a huge audience (perhaps they have won in the past and gained a large audience) then it's simple numbers. They are more likely to reach the final.
I know... I know. This does sound like sour grapes. I am a bit bitter, I'll admit it. It's just it hurts a little. I have to keep reminding myself why I started this, why I enjoy this. I don't think my blog is the best out there. I don't think it's the worst. I would like it to get noticed more. My boys keep me so busy. I can't be online as much as some bloggers with older children can. I know that is a factor.
Something else that upsets me a little is how little love my linky Trendy Thursday gets. I try so hard to get word out there and I love my regular gang who link up, but I'm always keen to grow it. Last week I discovered another blogger had started a very similar linky and is hosting it on the same day and already she had more people linking up. I guess she just caught the attention of the right people. I can't tell someone not to host a linky. It's a free world, and if my one doesn't go as well, I suppose that's just bad luck. It's a competitive environment. It's just I'm a sensitive person and I take these things to heart...
Well, I think I've got my feelings out there. I hope I don't upset anyone by writing this, but I feel honesty is the best policy. I'll get my happy hat on for tomorrows #TrendyThursday! Normal service shall be resumed!!