Friday, 27 January 2012

Stay at home, Mum?

When I'm out, with friends, family, or at a group, I feel like a fantastic Mum.  It's almost like I can see myself through their eyes.  I have a whole different perspective on myself and my abilities.

When I'm at home, I feel like a terrible Mum.  I feel tense.  All I can hear is myself saying "No! Don't do that!" or "Wait a minute, I've just got to hang the washing up".  I feel weighed down by responsibility and imposed upon by my child and my house.  I feel annoyance and anxiety.  I loose all perspective and all sense of self.

When we're out, I'm fun, relaxed and I feel free.  So free.

I love being a Mum.  I don't want a life where I rush out to a job I hate, having to put Ethan in childcare.  I'm happy to call myself a stay at home Mum.  I just struggle with the stay at home aspect...


  1. I can empathise with that, when we are at home I find myself shouting most of the time, whilst trying to tidy, cook and do the washing...

    It can be so much easier to be out!

    I love your blog header by the way,

  2. Thank you! And thank you for the follow.. It's so easy to get distracted at home, I think.. and get annoyed as well because you can see the jobs that need to be done, you want to finish them off, so you get irritated and snappy.. When you're out, you can just focus on yourself and your child/ren! So much nicer...

  3. I'm glad I'm not the only one who feels like this. Being home having housework to and a toddler to entertain is not always easy.xx

  4. Not the first and not the last I'm sure Emily! X

  5. So glad there are fellow Mummy's out there that feel the same. I always seem find something to do that isn't playing with Alex then always feel guilty about it! So the next day tend to try and make up for it!

  6. Yup, I always feel like I'm trying to make up for something!


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