I realised something just now.... When Ethan is ill, ironically, I'm more relaxed. I think it's because it gives me good reason to let all the other things in life slide for a bit. The house work, exercise.. All important, but not as important as my son.
It's horrid really that it takes him being ill to allow me to relax a little.
I don't mean I'm relaxed over his being ill, or that I like it. I don't. It just gives my mind a chance to think clearly for a while, over one thing.